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Thursday, November 11, 2010

Well....

The Big O's are over... ALMOST.

Yeah....

Was feeling pretty bored so I went to read my previous posts.

I was THAT childish when I was young???

HAHAHA, but it was nice reading those posts again.

Memories....

Gosh, I sounded old.

KEKEKEKE.

As I read through my posts, I could feel the changes in me.

I USED to like S.H.E,

but yet I'm so gaga over DBSK.

Yest(keke), I know they're on hiatus, and the possiblity of them getting back is like...

Still, I like them.

Or shoud I say Jaejoong more specifically??
HAHA, since this is such a dead blog, I shall write WHATEVER I want!!

JAEJOONG


JAEJOONG


JAEJOONG


JAEJOONG


JAEJOONG


JAEJOONG

keke, I know I'm lame, can't help it.

It's in me!!

I've gotten a few more friends, well I got closer to them...

BrenDA, shihhuh, tanhuixian.

I spent more times with them than with you...

I feel comfortable, nice and not awkward.

I need not try hard to fit in or to understand what they are saying.

It's not that others speak in alien languages,

but it's the intention of excluding me out makes me sick.

Is it so dificult to try to make me feel welcome that you all just give up??

Even if it's just a facade. I don't mind. Really...

How many times do we spent together in a year??

I could seriously count the hours.

It's THAT countable.

Then why can't you all pretend for those godsaken hours?!?

16 years, I've carried this feeling for 16 years.

Do you know I always dread family gatherings??

Because I know that I will always be the odd one out.

Am I that anti-social, that detestable??

I bet my friends understand me better than you all...

Isn't that ironic, pathetic??

Do you know what is my favourite subject??

Do you know what I like to eat??

Do you??

You don't even know my name!

I could remeber that time clearly.

Who's Yixuan??

Yeah right! Who AM I??

Yet friends treat me better than you all.............

Friends that cared for me.

Share with me..

It's nice to have such friends.

To take in all my nonsense, my childishness, my bossiness.

And YOU!
You the worst!

Do you really think I don't feel anything at all??

Betrayal is painfull, you know???

It hurts everytime I see you...

Do I mean nothing to you??

Worthless?

Uncomparable to those people outside, whom you rather spend your time with??

Do you know how much I yearn to spent time with you.

But you refuses, you don't want.

You weren't there when I need you.

You weren't there when I wanted to share my joys with you.

You were so reluctant to attend my ceremony.

You thought I couldn't see your facial expression??

Don't I make you proud?

Don't you fell ashamed seeing the proud faces other people wore except for you?

Even if you were with me, it was an empty shell.

I rather you not be with us then!

I don't want to hear the mockery from the empty shell anymore.

Things in school, I want to share them with you.

But did you give me a chance?

Do you know what stress I had been through these few days??

The O's... Knowing that I have to do extremely well to get an A.

Your absense aggravating the whole situation.

When I was sick, you didn't give me a call.

You even went overseas...

Even if you asked me of I was okay, you were in you drunken stupor.

My 16 birthday, how well celebrated that day was.

My ass.

Don't celebrate my birthday if you're reluctant.

I was really looking forward to that day you know.

But you spoilt that day, you chose that path.

So don't regret coz you choose it to end up this way.

Damn, didn't want this post to end up this way.

10:50 AM

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

ARGH!!!!!!!!
Today will be the most frustrating day of my WHOLE life.
GOD!!!!
What is wong with teachers?
Especially those whose in their fifties, and still single????
Take my maths teacher for example.
She always come into our class with a frown on her pale face,
and yes, PALE face, she's never rosy to begin with.
Then she will lecture our class for 20min,
in every single lesson, without fail.
We're already sooooooooooooo behind scheldule,
yet she doesn't seemed to =be bothered about it.
We're already the last class in the whole sec4 cohort,
based on the number of maths topics we had learnt.
And she's soooooooooo particular about homework.
Which spells T-R-O-U-B-L-E for me, being a maths rep.
First she wanted the homework to be stapled neatly.
Then she scolded me for stapling everything together in the next assignment.
As if I'm a pyschic,
knowing when the homework should be stapled or not.
Anyway, it's been 4 weeks and she's still complaining about the messy stack of holiday homework that I had collected at the start of the year!!!!!
I admit it's a pretty huge pile, but it's FAR AWAY from messy.
She told me that I had to differertiate the different worksheets through tying them together,
like paper 1 in one bundle, and paper 2 in another bundle etc.
How would I know that I had to use rubber bands, when my sec3 maths teacher did not instruct me to do that!
And to add oil to fire, I've placed it in the wrong mailtray.
I admit that's my mistake, but she blasted our class for 23minutes.
A FREAKING 23 minutes!!!!!!!
And just because there's no distinct differentiation between different papers, she said it was MESSY!!!!!!!!!
URGH!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!
It was in an orderly manner in that big stack.
The thought of it just makes my blood boil!
Then today, she wanted our class to copy down maths notes, instead of giving them to us.
She said this will train our focus.
AS IF!
She's just couldn't stand that we can complete the notes faster than her.
WHATEVER, LOSER!
Anyway, I almost wanted to photocopy the notes for the whole class, when she gave me the stack of notes and asked me to give out to the class.
Isn't she a freak??
I bet she's suffering from PMS, menopausal, and most likely, sex-deprived.
Hhmph, ONE more time I hear complains about the homework from her,
I'll fold every single piece of homework into paper aeroplanes and fly it into her staffroom.
That's will serve her right.
And don't think that I don't dare to do it.
Yah, she's pissed at our class, and we're equally pissed at her.
So, we've achieved equilibrum.
Anyway, my cca instructor also had a screw loose too.
She wanted the practice to carry on till 6pm.
6PM!!!!!
She's a freak, and I bet she and my maths teacher caome from the same planet.
Humans do not behave this way, only ALIENS do.
BLEH!!!
BOO to both of them!

8:52 PM

Friday, January 01, 2010

Happy New Year!!
Time sure passes fast.
I spended my last few minutes of 2009 in solitude, if you don't count my sleeping mother, and in silence, though the tv was on.
Managed to catch channel8's countdown in the midst of watching Rain's fashion concert,
seeing artistes hugging as much people as they could while they're on screen/stage.
Felt that they were so FAKE, the atmosphere's full of pretense.
Yeah, I know it's New Year, but to the extend of hugging anybody you saw/available??
That's a little too exaggerating, to me perhaps.
Didn't really much anticipated this year's countdown.
All the economic crisis and the failed copenhagen talk totally damped the mood,
Haha, just joking.
But just that this year's coutdown was a little special.
Since the day I was sensible, I've spent almost all my countdowns with my external family.
Except this time.
I don't know...
Maybe I grew a little towards being anti-social?
Haha, anyway, I always felt like a fish out of waters whenever I'm with my cousins.
Maybe I didn't spend as much bonding with them, as compared to them bonding with each other.
But I don't mind, cause I only get to meet them during festives or birthdays.
Haha, 2010 is finally here.
According to geomacy, this year will not be one easy year for us.
I'm quite a believer, unfortunately.
AND I'm having my O's this year.
So there goes my sweet sixteen.
Whoever said that sixteen was sweet, I'm gonna kill that person.
2 more days before school starts...
Stress has already started accumulating.
With everybody trying to see how i fare.
I will really cry no tears if my results were to be beaten by my cousin's.
Ok, away with all the emo stuff and here comes my resolutions and wishes for this year, though it seems a little difficult to achieve all of them.
Heehee.
Resolutions:
1. To take away the extra kilos on my body!!!(A little tough though.. heehee)
2. To clear away my stubborn acne, who's going to celebrate their 3 year anniversary.(Hmph)
3. And of course to score well for my O's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4. To not fail my NAPFA and retake again. I must succeed in ONE try!

Wishes:
1. A Tiffany&Co. ring and necklace
2. DHC eyetonic (For my pathetic short eyelasheses)
3. Dior liptreatment
4. Chanel cutex
5. Macbook
6. Ankle boots
7. DBSK to stay strong as ever.(Always keep the faith!)

Haha, they all seems so unreachable right?
Hai, Brenda's and TanHuixian's birthdays are coming and I don't know what to get from them.
Sianxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
Bye guys, maybe my next post will be on my birthday!
Haha, my laziness contributed to the deadness of this blog.

We wish you a merry christmas,
We wish you a merry christmas,
We wish you a merry christmas,
And a happy new year.
Though it's a litle too late to wish you guys merry christmas haha.



P.S I went swimming with Huixian on Wednesday, and I have to admit that I'm old and fat.
My spectacular stamina in the waters are gone. Can you believe it, I started to pant soooooo hard after just two laps???? Hai, must build up my stamina. This will go into my resolution list.

4:12 PM

Friday, October 23, 2009

Phew~
Exams are finally over, actually it ended last Thursday,
but I was lazy to blog about it.
Heehee :))
Now it's post exam activities now.
On Wednesday, we went to MacRitchie for a Bio walk.
But it was more of Geography than Bio... haha.
All the humus and fungi and plant,
Squirrels, monkeys and ants....
Haha, it was a freaking 8km walk, thru and fro.
Slopes and staircases.... I would never want to climb stairs AGAIN!!!!
There was SOOOOOOOOOOO many stairs, painted in yellow.
I'm afraid I'm having a phobia of yellow colour.
Don't laugh, you know there's some people who are afraid of the number 13?
Some even have a phobia of mother-in-laws....
Anyway, its SUPPOSED to be a holiday for me today.
BUT I have to go back to school later because of my CCA.
Seriously, CCA is such a chore!!!!!!
The teacher was and still is an irritating women.
She knew today was our PRECIOUS holiday, and we had made plans with our friends,
yet she scheduled our practiced today.
She's one evil women........
Hmph, nobody likes her.....
Everybody hates her........
I seriously don't feel like going today,
but what excuse should I give?
The practice is just pure torture because she wants everything to be done in her way!!!!!
Since she think she's so pro, go and do everything yourself LAH!
So angry, had to postpone my date with my friend,
SORRY, HUIXIAN!!!! :(((
I just feel like employing an assassin to kill her.
Hmmm, maybe this will be one of my 'projects',
plotting her death~ MUhahahahaha
Just joking,
ARGH! This is just not fun.
Why does she want to spoil my beautiful CCA.
Everybody became so unenthu when we knew we have to come back today!!
OK, enough of these saddenin stuff.
I want to go Wild Wild Wet, and get REALLY wet!!!!
TAN HUI XIAN, you better go tell your father.
Nothing good is going to happen today,
unless the teacher is hospitalised.
Sorry, my bad, but i just can't help it!!!!!
4 more hours to doom.
Wish my luck, it's gonna be a hell of a day.
I rather die.....

10:19 AM

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~

I JUST hate muscleaches!!!!!!!!!!

Arghhh!!!!

Anyway, i decided to blog despite my horrendous aches.

Last Wed, I had my O-level Chinese Orals.

It was ...... Okay?!?

haha, but the male invigilator was really scary.

He was staring at me like I was some weird specimen.

Anyway, I talked really little for my conversation section.

At first when I covered my first point already, I stopped,

expecting the invigilators to give me a question.

Yet I was met with silence,

so i just continue talking.

When I finished talking, the invigilators smiled at me,

and told me that I could go.

I totally stunned down there.

I was thinking: What the hell, I talked so little, and you said I can go.

So off I left the examination hall, looking really baffled.

hahahahahahaha.

Today, I had my O-level Chinese Listening Comprehension.

Hahaha, it was NATIONAL BROADCAST!!!!!

FM92.4. Cool huh!

Thats why my Chinese teacher was afraid we would miss the LC.

She said that: 1. Even you had a MC, or

2. You had flu symtoms, or

3. You had chickenpox,

You HAVE to sit for the exams.

Put it in another words even if you DIE you also have to sit for the exams.

hahaha, unless you're a comfirmed case of H1N1.

The exam was relatively easy(??), just a few tricky questions here and there.

Oh ya, I also got back my HSK results.

Its a Chinese test on your Chinese standard.

The test is from China, by the way.

I scored 383 out of 400..

Was really wondering where the 17 marks went to.....

Or I could have scored full marks!!!!!! :(

But my marks is quite good right???(Feeling really smug here.)

haha.

Thinking back, Huixian and Brenda REALLY are goofy.

Just being random, haha.

AM GOING OUT ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goodnight peeps.

8:35 PM

Friday, July 03, 2009

Haha,
I'm back again.
I'm here to post today's happenings before Huixian steals it.
Ok, so here it goes....
It took me alot of courage to read thi- type this.
Uhhum, so I was walking along with Brenda, Huixian and Shih Hui.
It was till then than Miss S saw something on my skirt.
So they asked me to take it off to wash.
As mush as I want to take it off, I can't.
Cause I didn't wear underpant.
As in who in the world wears PANTS under a SKIRT???
I'll be the first to raise up my hand.
Anyway, they was kind enough to help me wash it off
while I was in the toilet cubicle without my skirt.
p.s. THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!! I LOVE YOU ALL. MUAX!
So i got back my clean skirt.
Throughout the rest off lesson, I sat at the wierdest position ever.
Luckily there was no assembly, or I died.
So; thanks H1N1.
However, there's still a patch on my skirt.
And leaving with no choice, I followed Alicia's way.
Turn the skirt.
Haha, as ridiculous as it sounds, I did that.
Something more ridiculous is that,
instead of going home straight, I went out with Huixian and Shih hui.
At first we went to Toa Payoh, my dear Huixian wanna eat subway.
However, we didn't as the subway was crowded out by the IJ girls.
So we decided to go to Bishan and eat pastamania.
Before I sat down on the chair, I twisted my skirt around and sat on the stain.
Then we started eating.
Huixian said that the way I was eating was insulting the chef,
as I added cheese powder and tobasco on every bite i took.
Clumsily, I dropped my fork covered in blognese sauce and stained(again!) my skirt.
Anyway, bofore we made our way out, I twisted my skirt again.
We wanted to drink bubble tea.
But Shih hui had stomachache.
So we bought her nai cha~
Maybe its due to her pain or her clumsy fingers,
the naicha spilled over and I had to waste 2 wet tissue
due to Huixian's itchy fingers which spilled the naicha even further.
After that, me and Huixian bought sourplum greetea bubbletea.
It was fantabulous.
Then we walked around J8, doing pure window shopping.
Then we saw something...
A pink VAIO.
With pink keyboard.
And if you but a pink mouse, you'll get a SET!!!
How sweet and cute.
Then I saw a pink pouch for cybershot.
Imagine..
All pink VAIO laptop plus pink mouse, with pink Cybershot and pink pouch.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
That will be soooooooooooooo pink!!!
Haha.
Lets hope this post come out before Huixian posted it.

9:32 PM

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

I'm back!!
Haha, miss me much???
Its been a loooooooong time since I lasted posted
which was on........
Somewhere around.....
Before June!
hahaha.
Been very very very very very very busy
with MYES.
If you don't know what that means...
MID-YEAR EXAM.
yes, I know my school is nuts.
I heard that alot from my friends.
So I've spent all my hols mugging.
Ok ok ok, not throughout the WHOOOOOOLE hols.
About 2/3....
Fine 1/2 of it....
Thats it!
I spent 1/4 of my hols mugging.
Was just trying to make myself sound hardworking.
Anyway, finally I had time to blog as.......
EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER....
Unlesssss...
You have really short term memory,
having forgotten OLevel chinese oral on 14july.....
Which is highly impossible to ignore.
Gonna watch Harry Potter with Brenda.
Its a deal then, Brenda
haha.
Finished watching Howl's Moving Castle weeks ago.
Nice!!!
Awwww... Howl's soooooo sweet!!!!!!!!!!
The theme was very nice.
Me and Huixian got addicted to the catchy theme
which got stuck in our heads.
Making us listen to the tune while daydreaming at SBG.
Love Kim Bum and Kim So Eun.
Yes, I know I'm outdated.
But they are so cute and sweet.
Especially Kim So Eun.
She's soooooooo pretty.
Anyway exams are over, but that doesn't mean the stress is over.
I'm getting my papers back on friday.
How cruel the school can treat me.
Can't they let us, poor students, take a break and a breather?!?!
That's all folks.
To Brenda:
Xiah Junsu is not your hubby!!!!
Wake up my dear!!!!

8:59 PM